Sunday, September 27, 2009

Yesterday......

Yesterday was a day of reflecting......as it had been three years since my beloved Mother left her earthly bounds.

One thing that I have realized for a long time, is that I am usually the one behind the lens, capturing photographs of the moments of my and my families life journey. As I sat and watched the images of my Mother on my screen, I realized that I needed to make sure that I'm in more photographs, just for memories sake, as I would have been so sad if I did not have these little glimpses in time to reflect back on and remember how my mother looked throughout her life time.

Photography has always been a passion of mine [but I really dislike myself in photographs, so hiding behind the lens has always been my way of staying out of photographs]

So yesterday, after taking a few hundred photographs of our day......[which I need to share of Emma Sage] as we went for a walk, went to a book signing [Jerome the Gnome] went to the graveyard and then I was off to a babyshower. Of the 400+ images I shot of these moments, I decided to turn the camera on myself and take a self-portrait. I shot 8 frames [actually, Emma Sage shot them, as we set the camera up on an upside down clay pot [from my garden bench] placed it on the picnic table and then I set the timer, and when I sat down, I had Emma Sage push the button, giving me 10 seconds to stare into the lens and pray a good image was captured.....trying to look deep into the lens so that when my children look at this photograph many years from now, they will say "I remember Mom at 45....."

So here is what I came up with.....


Me, myself and I


and here is one that Emma Sage took of my Mother and I, the March before she passed away. I treasure this photograph, as I don't have too many of she and I together as adults ~ as I was usually the one photographing, or we were always in big, group shots.

Me and my Mom

So, I guess the point of my story here is, feel good in your own skin, take the time to capture moments....but make sure you are in the photographs some of the time, and hug your Mother, as when she is gone, the loss is great.

10 comments:

ABandCsMom said...

That's a great picture of yourself! Looks professionally done.

Kim Ayres said...

Maggie always loves the photos I took of her 10 years previously, but can never see that if she lets me take one of her now, she'll really appreciate it in 10 years time... :)

RK said...

Those are both really beautiful shots!

Lisa said...

I love the picture of you and your mom, Tara Marie. I have no nice casual shots of Mom and me, and I sure do feel sadness about that. I don't really have a lot of pics of her alone either. *sigh*

I know what you mean about being in more pictures. I, too, am the photographer and don't see a lot of myself. I've been trying to get some more of myself, too. I am trying to fill some frames of Annette and don't have a lot of her either. I guess we were not a very photo snappy family (although we have a TON of the kids). And now it's too late.

(((HUGS))) for a difficult time. Next month will be 3 years for my mom, too.

Tara Marie said...

Lisa, I remember so very clearly when your Mother passed away, as my heart ached for Annette. I wanted to share something with you. My Mother adored your Annette, as I shared our friendship with her, and when my Mother was diagnosed with lung cancer, her first words to me where not of her, but of your Annette, as she said that a day did not go by that she did not pray for my friend and the thought of her two young boys. Hugs to you dear friend, I am so blessed that Annette has joined our hearts in friendship.

Chris said...

Beautiful photos. You have the most gorgeous eyes Tara Marie!

Sorry you are missing your mom, but it is clear that she is very much miss you.

Brandie said...

I love the picture of you and your mom. It made me realize I don't know when I last had my pic taken with my mom. Thanks for sharing those.

Frani_54 said...

Tara, your self portrait turned out gorgeous! Thanks for putting into perspective the need to make sure there are photos of yourself. I too am the one always taking pictures and rarely have one in which I am in a photo....

Hugs
Fran

starrlife said...

Beautiful pictures and a touching post! Great points indeed....I'm like you, behind the camera!

Laura said...

Beautiful pictures! (((((hugs)))))