A Mothers Heart.......

So this morning I wrote the post below....filled with so many emotions of a Mother watching her children grow and learn about the hard facets of life.

This afternoon the phone rang, and for some strange reason I hesitated to pick it up.

"Hello" I say,

"Hello, Tara, this is Dawn, Dee's Mother"

My heart sank.

"Oh Dawn I say, tell me it is not so"

"Yes, Tara, Dee passed away last night".....says Dawn with a shaky voice.

I start to cry.

"Oh Dawn, I'm so, so sorry".........

and then we continued on our conversation. Dawn telling me that Dee had her favorite dinner [Nachos and Pot Stickers] that she had her son and brothers with her until late evening. Everyone went home and to bed, not thinking that this was the time for Dee to pass. [although we knew that it would be soon due to the nature of her cancer and how it had traveled]

Dee was an amazing woman. We had become friends back in 1994. It is funny, but we both were of the belief of destiny and that things happen for a reason. Our meeting and becoming friends had an important meaning for the two of us......as the years unfolded our friendship grew, even if we only saw each other a few times a year. We could just pick up the phone and call, just to talk. She was a friend, pure and true. We loved each other unconditionally. That is what makes me the sadest today....I lost a friend, a person who had a profound effect on my life...someone who let me know that life was truly a blessing.........Dee adored Emma Sage, she celebrated with me every step of the way, never, ever thinking that T21 was anything but to celebrate.


Delores [yes,,,,it rhymes with xxxxxx, for our Seinfeld friends....and we always laughed and laughed about that episode] you were an amazing woman....a dear friend........a wonderful mother, sister, daughter. I'm going to miss you dearly, but I know your soul is eternal and your spirit I will carry with me until we meet again.

Good-bye dear friend.