Friday, September 26, 2008

Two years ago.....

Two years ago today, my beautiful and dear Mother left her earthly bounds.

At times it seems like it was just yesterday, and other times it seems like it was an eternity ago that we were traveling the journey of loosing someone so precious and dear.

My Mother was such a beautiful soul. She was they type of person who always put others before her......she would literally take the clothes off her back or give the last dollar in her purse to those in need.

She cared deeply about her family and friends......she made everyone feel special, like they were the most important person in the world.

I still go to pick up the phone to call her....not as often as I had done right after her passing, but I still do, and then I stop and pause and cry, because I know that I can't just talk to her. But I do talk to her often at her grave.

Emma Sage does the same thing. I hear her chatting to Nana from time to time. It is so precious to see, my little girl with her hands clasped in prayer......looking towards the heavens talking to her Nana.

I know Emma Sage understands that Nana has left her earthly bounds, as I was reminded of her knowledge just the other day. Emma Sage asked me "Where is my PopPop?" and I told her that he was in Heaven with GOD. She let out a little shriek of pain and started to cry and said "I don't want my PopPop to be dead like Nana".......

Oh bless her little heart. I think that the pain of knowing that PopPop is also really gone sank into her heart and soul at that moment.

So, today, on the anniversary of my beloved Mother's passing, I have been sitting and reflecting. The weather today here is gray....and a light, steady rain. It is truly beautiful, as I always think of my Mother when it rains, because growing up, every time it rained, my Mother would tell me that it reminded her of home [Ireland] so for me....the rain was a beautiful thing because it made my Mother smile and remember her home and family.

Ar dheis go raibh a anam ~ May she rest in Peace.

I love you Mom.

On a wing and a prayer...
I did this series of photographs last year, just before my Mothers anniversary. In these two, I had asked Emma Sage to talk to Nana in Heaven.....and this was the image that I captured.

after a few moments of prayer, this is the next image that I got.....my sweet little girl, breaking down in tears at the realization that her Nana was in Heaven.
Crying angel.....

8 comments:

Cleo said...

Thank you so much for this BEAUTIFUL post Tara!!!. Your mom's spirit is always with you and Emma Sage ~

Chris said...

So sorry for your loss.

As cleo said, your mom's spirit is alive and well in her children and grandchildren.

How wonderful that a gray, rainy day like today can still be a source of happiness, a reminder of a mother's love.

Bernadette said...

Hi My Dearest Tara
It took a while to write this note because I was blinded by tears my heart is so full at this moment I just can't believe it is two years since my darling friend went to heaven. How is Ken doing and what surgery is Emma having? I love you very much Bernadette

Bernadette said...

Hi My Dearest Tara
It took a while to write this note because I was blinded by tears my heart is so full at this moment I just can't believe it is two years since my darling friend went to heaven. How is Ken doing and what surgery is Emma having? I love you very much Bernadette

Tara Marie said...

Thank you Cleo.....I feel my Mother's spirit often.

Chris, it is a blessing that a gray, raining day can bring such happiness. My sister and I were chatting about that this evening, that in Ireland they joke about the weather, as that is there only recourse over what is destine to happen often.....gray, raining days. But oh, the green it creates!!!!

My dearest Darling GodMother......it is incredible to think that Philly is gone two years already. This evening we went to my Dads to have dinner....and I teared up watching Gabriel and Sadie playing [they were giving each other kisses and it was so precious] and I realized that my Mother never got to meet these two grandchildren, but that she must be smiling from Heaven down upon them....and then as we were watching the slide show of images of her life, the one thing that struck me, was that she always had babies in her arms and she was always giving them kisses!!!!

I hope to visit with you soon.

Peace and love, Tara Marie

Anonymous said...

Can't believe it has been 2 years...she was a dear, sweet lady!
She loved all of you so very much..
She and I would meet at all the garage and yard sales ...and we were always buying something for our grandbabies :)
We would no sooner say goodbye and we would meet at the next sale a few miles down the road and laugh!
(we must have had the same newspaper ads :)
Linda D

mom2noah said...

Hi Tara,
Your tribute to your mother's passing two years ago was very touching. The pictures of Emmas brought tears to my eyes. Sending lots of hugs.

Kari said...

Sending hugs and love TM. Still wiping away the tears as I type. Those photos tugged at my heart. Beautiful Post my friend. It looks like my Dad will be joining your Mom soon:(